I went to the Dr this morning hoping to have the ol membranes stripped. No such luck, seeing as I am not dilated even a teensy tiny bit. I have mixed feelings about this of course. First of all - I am SHOCKED that I wasnt at least a 1...since I have CRAZY contractions ALL the time. And not just the painless tightening ones. Sometimes after a long day of chasing kids and cleaning I have the annoying crampy ones that start in my back. Nice. Well its good to know they arent doing a dang thing to help me out!
On the other hand of course - I am completely not ready to have another baby. At least not this week! Brigitte and Spencer are both sick with colds and coughs (big surprise there!), my house in basically in shambles, and I havent even unpacked the baby blankets and clothes in order to sort and wash them. I still need to find the infanct car seat in the garage and rearrange all the carseats in the car. Plus, since Spencer is still in his crib we sort of need to figure out a new sleeping arrangement for the new babe. So I guess its a good thing im not showing signs of labor! Talk about in denial and unprepared!
The truth is, I have had a GREAT pregnancy...but I am starting to really feel awful these days! Emotionally Im super grouchy and little things make me feel totally out of control. Im glad I havent felt like this all along, so I really can't complain. But when my kids are having tantrums and the laundry is piled up, I sort of have to take a few minutes to get a grip or else I would lose it!
My weight gain has miraculously been in the 'normal' range instead of the 'holy cow you gained how much' range this time around. But another 2-3 weeks of pregnancy will definitely bump me from one bracket to the next! I have managed to avoid maternity clothes altogether up to this point, but its pretty slim pickins in my closet. For instance, I tried to wear a pair of leggings today and I could hear the fabric crying as I tried to s t r e t c h into them. Not good. Time to bust out the fat pants!
Brigitte is going to be really cute with this baby. She obsessively tells me that her toys (babies, kitties, what have you) have just come out of her tummy and they are soooo cute and little!!! And where she completely ignored Spencer when he came home, I think she is going to be a good little mommy this time around. Ill have to be sure to keep an eye on her though or else I have a feeling Id find the new baby in Brigittes doll stroller being wildly strolled throughout the house!
Spencer - is going to have a tough time. I had hoped he would be oblivious to the baby and just stay his sweet little even tempered self. Alas, he has become quite attached to me and cries whenever I leave him with a sitter, or try to hold someone elses baby. Hopefully Brigitte will be able to keep him distracted and entertained so he doesnt feel totally abandoned! Im not worried overall, because I know the more kids you have the better they all play together and the easier life is. But the first few months are rough during the adjustment phase!
Anyway, here's to probably 2 more sleepless, uncomfortable, heartburning, contracting weeks of pregnancy. My next appt isnt until next friday because Dr West is going out of town, so maybe at the earliest I will get things moving next weekend. Its almost like your last days on earth - what do I do with my few precious days???? I think a trip the hair dresser is in order, and possibly a pedicure....