A few random pictures of our sweet girl:
To all those moms out there - a voice of warning!
NEVER NEVER mention the word 'easy' when talking about your pregnancy, labor, or delivery.
I made this mistake when talking about my pain free 6 hour stint in delivery...and apparently the pregnancy gods were listening....
And they struck me down. One word for you all: MASTITIS. Apparently everything balances out in the pregnancy world! I have never in my life gotten so sick so quickly. I had felt a little achy/flu like symptoms for about 24 hours, but they were totally managable with the help of my friend extra stength Tylenol. Unfortunately, by 4:00 yesterday I was delirious with pain. I couldnt lift my arms up, even to hold Brigitte or nurse her. And the second she latched on - I started crying. I have never felt fire like that before - OUCH! My thoughts turned to my sister in law Mitzi, who was stricken with Mastitis not once but TWICE ( I blame her 'easy' pregnancy!) before throwing the towel in on nursing forever.
I ended up sitting in a doc in the box for two hours, wrapped up in a sad BYU blanket - even though it was 102 degrees outside. And because I'm so completely post-partum I couldnt stop crying once I started so I sat there like an unstable housewife until the doctor could finally see me. The worst part was that there was a screaming baby in the waiting room with me, and my body auto responded to its crying by immediately filling up with more milk of fire! It was pretty traumatic.
Thankfully, 24 hours later I feel 110% better. Thank goodness for potent antibiotics and anti-inflammatories ! This whole nursing thing has been such a bad experience. And yet when Gabe gives her a bottle, even though its still breastmilk - I feel like I have failed her! And I feel so furious that I have to share her during 'our' feeding time. Just another perk of being hormonally imbalanced :)
So being incapable of taking care of Brigitte, and with Gabe having to work today, we called in backup in the form of 'SuperGrammy'. My mom came over at 9 this morning and stayed until Gabe got off work. I laid in bed sleeping and watching desperate housewives as she spoiled the baby and tried to work the remotes to the TV. I emerged from my room only to hand off milk or clean the pump...and at one point I found them in the bathroom having 'spa day'. Brigitte was laying on a throne of towels, with the lights dimmed, receiving a sponge bath and massage with her expensive baby products. She looked totally relaxed and wide awake - I seriously couldnt believe how much she was enjoying the whole experience! What this confirms is my belief that Brigitte is going to be extremely high maintenance. And that we are all way too willing to accomodate! Shes just so adorable and fun, I cant help it! Thanks to Mom, who has been her biggest fan and has now become her willing slave! I would have DIED without your help since she was born!
Gabe has been such a good sport, and completely supportive. Hed gladly give her formula and help out with feedings. In fact, I think hed love to be a stay at home dad and hog the baby 24 hours a day! Im lucky to have him. I know a lot of guys who fear the newborn stage, and Im just glad he is totally confident and capable of taking care of her without me having to tell him what to do.
If only he could breastfeed her :) Mastitis is the DEVIL