We had a good Thanksgiving on the Farm with Gabes family, except that I had been sick and then Brigitte got really sick and we had to pack it back to Boise a day early. She has a barky little cough and we have been sitting with her in the bathroom with the shower steaming up the room every night. Its exhausting. What in the world am I going to do with a newborn baby on the side?????
Thanks to my in-laws who selflessly offered up every inch of their home and sanity to house all of us for the big feast! The food was extravagant as always. I will NEVER be able to cook that caliber of a meal! Thanks Shelley!
My biggest source of pregnancy anxiety is the general unprepared feeling of being in charge of TWO babies all day. Nursing was less than natural for me, and I dread struggling with that all next year. And boy do I FEAR the first 4 months postpartum. I may as well check in to the looney bin right now. Mothers around the blog world - tell me how you do it! Do you ever shower again??? I said goodbye to my vanity long ago... but alas, I can sense another big shift coming my way...and I am FEARFUL!
Also, thinking about losing myself in parenthood gives me this anxiety ridden state of mental shutdown, where it triggers my desire to finish school! Did anyone else have that? I was talking with a friend last night about degree options and it totally made me want to buy a backpack. I swear my mind turned to mush in 2004 and I lost my ambition. But boy do I regret it! I have an unfinished bachelors of nursing degree hanging out in my closet....and I confess I might just go dust off the binders!
On a holiday obsessive side note - we got our tree up and some lights on the house - overall feeling very festive! Brigitte loves the lights and says WOW and CUTE!!! Shes such a funny little person, we cant get enough of her. She is talking more and more in little sentences and we LOVE IT! She can now say:
There it is!
Whered it go?
Love you (dad, mama, baby)
ohhh, Baby Jesus!
Night night baby (she tucks things in with her blanket when she says this)
And pretty much anything else I tell her to say, especially names (Kelsey, Granny, Grandpa, Keaton, Jayna, Grammy, grace, and of course (yaya) lila) She struggles with caroline, christy, and of course calls Gabe "Gay". Precious daughter!
(we put a train around the tree and she of course thought it was a death machine)
She warmed up a bit to it after some comfort from her baby.
And one of my favorite new tricks of hers is when I say, Where's Mommys baby? and She pats her tummy or mine. Sometimes she hands me her 'baby' (aka RAT blanket doll thing) and wants me to hide it under my shirt. Boy does she think thats funny! I cant wait for her to realize there is a real baby in there! She is OBSESSED with babies. We are almost as excited to see her with the newbie as we are to meet it ourselves!
The clock is ticking down. We have our U/S on the 7th (One week!) and then we will have the envelope containing the news of Boy or Girl! I canNOT believe I am nearly half way done with this pregnancy! Hallelujah. And I almost wish it would slow down...because soon Im going to have to actually have the baby.
I am definitely showing. Thanks to pie. So you can all feel good about your skinny selves after thanksgiving, while I get to rock my gorgeous baby bod. No picture yet. But imagine a giant dough boy. now give it my face. there, now you know exactly what I look like :)
Hope your holiday was awesome!